America's Next Top Model

Tonight was the season premier of America's Next Top Model. So of course this meant that I would plop myself down in front of the TV and for two hours I would gawk over beautiful models, wishing I could be in their shoes (high heels to be more specific!) After judging and mocking each girl that went down the runway, I began to realize that I was one of those girls. I mean, I always knew I was, but it was just something I never expected myself to admit! No no, I don't mean one of those girls, like the models, but instead, one of those girls who looks at every other girl and compares herself to them. It's funny how much I can connect this to my research paper. Throughout my report, I referred to those type of girls as just "those girls", and never ME like I should have been doing!

Then something even more amazing happened. For the first time in 8 years, there were two plus size models who made it onto the show and through the first round. Whoa, this was just too much. I'm not one to look up to actresses and models as role models (like I said before, I only look at them to gawk) but I was seriously intrigued by this. These girls truly were inspirations. It takes a lot to be a little on the heavy side and stand side by side with a stick skinny girl, and still have complete confidence in yourself. To have this type of poise is just astonishing. In a world like ours, you don't find too many heavy set girls who love their bodies.

I for one have never had confidence in myself. In fact, I have always had really low self esteem. I think this is why tonight I was so happy to see these girls on TV. Ok, so it's not like I am overweight or even close to being overweight, but weight seems to be a BIG issue in today's society (no pun intended). It's just hard not to judge yourself and tell yourself you're not good enough. Lets admit it, we all go through it at one time or another. In reality, it's just not healthy to think this way!

To be honest, it's sad to know people think they have to be super thin to be healthy or to fit in. America's Next Top Model is totally proving these people wrong and I am super excited! And everyone says reality shows are pointless..HA!